Transition Part 2

Yes, there is a few steps to transition. This next part has been a deeper transition within. I have entered a more committed relationship and a new level of maturity in God. The level of intimacy is precious. I can hear him and see him on a higher level. I have been able to see into different realms that have shown me more of who I am, in God. A lot to wrap your human brain around, I know. But that is where you have to let go of the "human" mindset and open yourself to the "spiritual" mindset. I sometimes cannot contain mentally or emotionally the transformation God has done in me. I know that things in my life or about me were changed and I have no other explanation than God's mighty work. No matter how hard I tried to change my life and not let God do it; I always fought the vicious circle syndrome. I have been given words from the lord, that have become alive, by total strangers who know nothing about me. People have confessed to me what God has shown them what he is doing and will do in my life. Now, I will admit two things. I wanted to believe them so badly but doubted what my ears heard. I never thought that I could have what my heart so desperately wanted. Through the work God has done in me these past few years, I can tell you too, that the desires of my heart, are not all the same as they were prior.

Faith, I have always had unwavering Faith. I have always been the girl who saw beyond the possibilities. Most people would call that a "once upon a time." Even though I am blessed with this I still have to go into a deeper trust in that faith. I am at a place where it has been and I'm sure will be again,completely impossible to do something on my own. Meaning, the resources or the creation of it is none existent. With out God, It is not possible. Which is where the opportunity for God to astound us, takes place! Thank you God! I have a peace that I have come to know in God that allows me to be still and wait with patience. WOW, another triumphant achievement for me! I can rest in knowing that no matter how ruffled my feathers get, no matter how hard it rains and no matter how much fear breaths down my neck; My God in heaven has got my back. He will come through putting all my fears, all my doubt and all my enemies under my feet. No man will ever come against me. No poverty will be before me. No fear will cripple me. No sickness will defeat me.Nothing will destroy me but the Lord himself. My purpose will be fulfilled by the grace of God. I have given up myself and I have taken up and carried my cross and I will follow my Lord and Savior. Stepping out in faith is like stepping out off a cliff and believing with all your might that you will land on a pile of feathers. Crazy right? Yeah, It sometimes makes us Christians look absolutely ridiculous. But you know what, God loves that divine intervention moment that makes you a believer. Sometimes a little bit of faith can move mountains.(Matthew 17:19-20 For I truly tell you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain,"move here,and move there," and it will move; nothing will be impossible for you.)

Therefore,here I am, at what I think is the final leg of transition,here in this part of my life and before I leave. Now I feel God has put me through "missionary boot camp" along with showing me the fruit of my pruning. I feel there is a few unfinished things at this present moment. And I have become aware with a deeper understanding of my calling. The gifts that God has created in me are surfacing. From this, Anxiety and Anxiousness have set in. Panic attacks have waken me and robbed me of rest. I believe that ,that is my "flesh" reacting to the process of trying to contain what 's happening. My emotions have become uncontrollable. I will be sitting and it will tap me on the shoulder and punch my square in the face. This is really happening. This is not a movie, this is not my imagination. I am going to live in the Czech Republic and I will have to rely completely on God. As well as having to rely completely on him to finish what's needed here. There are several details left to complete here before I can even leave the country. I have to have both pets registered and micro chipped according to the CZ requirements and the airline. I have had to go in blind to apply for my visa. Which I have not even applied for yet. Getting each piece to the "visa puzzle" is trying when you have to do it in both country's. My departure date is November 9th. When I found my ticket, I knew it was "the ticket". I did vigorous research daily on everything and every requirement I would need for this move to happen. I have to sell my car yet. Unfortunately, I owe more against it then what it is worth. I have had to get out of debt. I have had to pay everything off ,putting my school loans in forbearance and taking final medical bills with me. On top of paying for daily,weekly and monthly necessities and pet food. The organization, prioritizing and faith I have had to work on is overwhelming. Traveling to say good-byes, and be a part of celebrations of family and friends. Enduring the emotional process of the initial separation and elimination. Each day I can feel and see my life as I know it, being peeled away from it's very existence. A very detailed and lengthy process that has tested me on every level. All that pregame scrimmaging worked in the end. I was being prepared all these years for this very moment, and what is yet to come.

Trusting God to supply every need from here on out. Sounds like a huge and crazy thing to do, right? Well this is one of the main reasons I chose to do this blog. Not only will I share with you these amazing happenings, It will increase my growth and hopefully your faith in God. It all looks uncertain if all my needs will be met. But that is where I will sit and rest in the stillness of my trust in God. I am in over my head in water. I am not sinking, I am submerging myself in his promises, my faith and his everlasting love. I will get on that plane November 9th. My visa will arrive on time. My car will be sold. All my financial obligations will be met. My pets will arrive safe. Joy will overcome me. God will reveal himself in a larger way to me. A new life will be lived. Dreams will come true,people will be saved. The heavens will open and gifts will pour down like rain upon his people. Healing will take place in the nations. The shift in the earth is already happening and the angels are coming down and taking place ,setting up the army. Trust, It is the act of reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confident expectation of something; Hope. Confidence in the certainty of future payment for property or goods received; I put all this in my God.