I obviously have been behind on daily entry. I ask for your forgiveness. It has been a fast,tiring and lonely two month transition . All though I have had great moments,sad moments, moments of revelation and bouts of homesickness; I know in my heart that I am meant to be here.There is a lot of behind the scene activity here and in my life that is hard to document. Therefore great details of some things just will not be possible to put into words. What I do share will be personal,deep,strange,and hopefully a beacon of light for you.
In the last two months I have battled spiritual warfare, and additional pruning, with the mighty grace and mercy of God. I have spent much time praying,talking asking questions and hashing out things with God. What I have come to is what I already know; that no matter what, he is here with me and whatever he chooses for me, is the best for me. So I had to come to a higher level of that believing and just rest in that. My relationship with God has grown greatly. I can actually admit that I am crazy, yet a courageous crazy person. There is a lot more to it then just picking up and moving here. There is great details that take place in and around you. My heart has so much inside and it is very hard to try and contain it all. He keeps filling it more and more each day. I am at that place he likes to bring us where we gather and he builds inside us. His love runneth over. What is it he's doing? I have NO CLUE. All I know is the overwhelming feeling I have to just keep praising, preaching, loving and living my life and my dreams. I want to run up and down the streets here and just tell everyone the good news. I have so much inside me to express right now, and limited outlets. But I am just waiting on God to release me. I feel like an arrow that is pulled way back in the bow just eagerly waiting for the release.
I am still trying to find my place here. In turn it has been very lonely. I know there is an abundantly giving and loving group of people here but there is still that rut. I have the language barrier for one. I know little Czech, all though I learn something new each day. There is the "who do I trust" scenario. I can explain it to you this way. I feel like a new kid who just moved to a new town and school. I wander around aimlessly, feel like a sore thumb,watch the people carefully, eat at the lunch table alone and I'm shy or reserved to a point for protection . I have taken the scripture Proverbs 4:23(Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it. ) very seriously. I see, hear and feel so much,yet I remain silent for unknown reasons. Then again I remain silent and keep my distance just to be cautious. God has let know to slowly reveal myself here. I'm not afraid to get out of the boat, I just don't want to sink it before I get the chance to get out of it. I finally get to start a new life. A brand new canvas. I want to make it my master piece. I have been given another chance to do it right. I have spent time with the team and others and I have bonded greatly with the youth, the elders of the church(Jana,Ivana and the 2Pastor Jirka's) a few from the team and a golden lab, Nikki. They have a way of making me feel a bit more rooted here. I have seen many hearts that are enlarged with God, but these people are extra special. I love them, and I would fight to the death for them. 
Among the good and bad I am surrounded completely by goodness. God's goodness. This place is very special. All though it is known and has been through tribulations for many years, I get the feeling that God has marked this place as a holy ground. A treasure to be found in the great battle. A fight well worth fighting. I love it here , and I feel pretty darn lucky and blessed to be a part of it. Not to mention that with in this city,lies great beauty. I go out each day eager to discover more. I am very anxious to see what God does this year. I have a good idea to some things, but God has big sleeves; so I know there's more up them then I could ever fathom. I,as well look forward to what God does with me. I cant wait to see where he puts me, who he puts me with and how my gifting and talents explode.
As I end this I will make it clear that I will start to do daily entry's with photos or video now that I am have had time to catch you up a bit. As well as I am putting together a monthly news letter. Stay tuned for monthly girl night adventures with Rachael,me and the youth and Prom 2010. I look forward to what happens here. Please keep me,my babies and this city in your prayers. Until then, Take Care Of You.
With All My Love................CzGirl <3
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